things just get so comfortable you think you'll never ever wanna get out of your comfort zone. truth is, you're scared. you've done this once and you've sworn to yourself since never EVER to land yourself in such precarious situations AGAIN. but you keep thinking about it, as if it's a bloody plague haunting you and you can't seem to get rid of it.

so, what's stopping you, my friend?
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i will be in malaysia for the entire christmas season (i am DAMN sure the Lee family's got some damn exciting thing for malaysia. hahahhaa), followed by BAND CAMP! haha. this is going to be damn fun, like.. PLUS ULTRA you know! okay, let me recite to you my schedule for the week. my very happening last week of december.

23rd- WEDDING! (yes, i am getting married. hurhurhur)
24th- MALAYSIAAAAAAA TRULY ASIAAAAAAAAAA
25th- and again
26th- and again. PLUS! meeting my sqnitlam and lilyonehundred at OHGLORIOUSJURONGPOINT! for a snippitysnap damn short but loving time, followed by BANDCAMP!
27th- BAND CAMP! / full dress
28th- BAND CAMP! / rehearsal
29th- END OF BAND CAMP! GRAD NIGHT.

and i am still very fat, BUT I LOVE MY VERY BUSY WEEK OKAY! BEATS BUMMING AROUND LIKE AN ASS. hahahaha, i love it i love it! (:

oh gosh, i don't exactly feel like post prom partying on the 29th, even with the ticket. i don't know lah, just not feeling like it. heh. i'll just find something to do. or maybe.. sleep. hahahahha. i thrive on sleep. okay, this is turning into a get-to-know-your-inner-self post. SHIT!

i've gotta learn to STOP TALKING SO MUCH for the next few days to prevent any humiliating croaking and cracking moments. that'd just SUCK. shit man, and the food's gonna be DAMN good and DAMN fried in malaysia. SHYTE! now i don't wanna go to malaysia TOO, dammit! okay, i am considering. the Lee family will understand (:

and i think i think too much.
therefore, i shall not think too much and sleep now or i won't be able to get my big fat ass in MY DAMN EXCITING RED FBT SHORTS!!!! off bed tomorrow morning at 6. CUE FOR APPLAUSE.

i want to go to kbox and sing chinese songs off screens with chinese words. and that was so random.

I HAVE BEEN PRACTISING EYE LINING SKILLS FOR THE PAST CENTURY AND I AM ALMOST THERE! (: ahahahahahaha, awesome shit i tell you, this black stuff, they DEFINE your eyes! woah, sessybaaaaaaaaaack! the rest can just go eat shit and die but the eye liner is KING okay. i have peeled/rashed up and in A VERY BRIEF SUMMARY, screwed up skin that my cheeks are always red for the WRONG REASONS (hahahahaha) so i guess i'll just make do without the not so very exciting blusher and look like a dead person. I LOVE IT LAH. zoooooooooooooombie. HAHAHA. ohoh! and i can play the BASS! (:

COMESOMEUPPADAMUSIK!

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you've gotta read that with RHYTHM MAN! sth which i do not really have at the moment, BUT I AM WORKING ON IT! hahaha, working reaaal hard baby! synchropated (how the hell do you spell that, drummerchua!) beats and straight beats and AH BENG BEATS WHICH I SO LOVE! i am bloody hell on high at 1.35am on a very exciting saturday MORNING.

AND I JUST SAW MY TAN XIANGXIANG'S FACE IN A PITCHER PASTED ON THE DAMN COOL TABLE! HELLO DARLING! I LOVE YOU AND I AM WAVING TO YOU RIGHT NOW! (: like, now.
and you're not responding. stop smiling at me, it's scaring me! HAHAHA.

























okay, the fat girl needs her fat bed now.
good night skinny world, the fat girl is going to sleep her fat head away NOW.
like,
NOW.